the itinerary

who decides that karma thing anyway. whats a fair loss to obtain something of value. what could i give to get the one thing i desire most. if we spend a whole lifetime giving, what then could be a justified reward. aren't we all martyrs if we don't obtain our goal in the end. is life really designed to be constant work with little gain, or is that just a moral forced on us by society. society being just a formal word for humankind's failure to evolve and prosper. society can dictate what it wants but i will let fate decide where i end up. the cruelest world always has a greener pasture. one ticket please.

an alchemist's notes

a ball of energy. all we are or ever will be. if energy really has a true source.. is it not from the soul that inhabits this vessel ? when the vessel dies and disintigrates.. where then do our souls go ? it seems that life is not defined by birth and death, but by a cycle of transfering energies. i wonder what memories the soul carries remnants of.. is there an eternity's worth of consciousness buried within us ? can we carry on the fragments of memories nearly lost ? or is it just like a feeling of deja vu. a glimpse at our eternal memories, loves, and feelings before they simply fade away. but love, true love, undying love, does not fade or wither. it stays a part of the soul like the sand on the beach. if all we are is energy, or stardust, or a blessing from heaven.. i still believe my soul is eternally a part of his. a fuzzy memory but a love that will never die..

the parallel universe

the place i visit every night. a world that could just be fantasy. but then, is it really beyond the realm of possibility ? a decision made. a fork in the road. we choose a path. does a part of us walk the other path ? or is it simply another me. existing apart from my consciousness. following her decided path, only to find another fork. what part of her is left to travel the other way then ? can we reach these fragments of a whole ? see through the eyes of another me ? i think so. i close my eyes and see as she does, or as i do. in my diverged reality. she is happy. she is deep in love. her soul one with his. a bond never tested, never faultered. unbreakable and complete. purity, love, and devotion. once a path is chosen, there is no turning back. but this does not mean that the desired ending will not come true. life is what we make of it. and a dream abandonned is the sign off of a broken being. if there were no forks, no challenges, the ending isn't as poetic and perfect. soul mates have a way of conquering all obstacles. i am faithful that parallel me and i will see through the same eyes.